My bf was dressing like a woman and having sex with men, is this going to affect my future relationships?

My boyfriend had told me that he had been raped by a man 10 years ago after his ex gf set him up. Since then he told me his way of taking control of that situation was to dress like a woman. I found it strange and hard to accept at first but I thought I loved him so I trusted it was in the past. He then asked if I would use toys on him and i did it once and hated it. Since then he made me feel guilty about it and said that my disgust made him hate me... so I told him i didn't hate it and kept doing it. He then asked me if he could dress up with me and used the same tactics to get me to agree to it. I began to feel like a freak, he would get in my head and tell me we were the same. He then started asking me to have sex with strangers on the internet while he watched, I didn't want to do it but I agreed to talk to them and pretend. He then said I was a slut and got massively jealous and said i was doing it for my benefit and not his. Every argument we had was my fault, he made me feel like I was priviliged to be with him and that he could do better than me. I then find out he has been sleeping with strangers (men) from the internet in his house for the last 10 years. I felt physically sick when I found his online profile. He has really lowered my confidence and am finding it hard to leave the house. I went for a swim earlier and was staring at the 2 men sat in the jacuzzi and convinced myself they were like my ex and started crying. I then started to question all of my ex bfs. I had major trust issues before I met this guy and he knew that. I now have massive paranoia, a hate of sex, lowered confidence and am worried that I will fail in all future relationships as I won't trust a man around males or females. I need to get over this...